maybe someday,
after all of it,
we can take the train out of town,
walk to a huge grassy meadow somewhere,
with no one around.
this was your favorite spot after all.
we can run through the grass.
we can lie down and doze off,
while staring at the sky.
and we can cry in each other’s arms,
as clouds drift by overhead,
hoping we don’t ever wake up.
every night, once i get into bed,
i have nightmares that i fear will come to pass
and dreams that i know never will.
but ultimately, neither of them matters.
they are just dreams after all,
and i only cling to them in fear of reality.
dreams are the only things i can call my own,
but even my dreams i can’t escape,
with how much i wish their lies were true.
so in the end, i let those lies define me,
because the truth would only destroy me.
my dreams are destroying me just the same,
and they don’t even have the common courtesy
to do it as fast as i want.
